Sometimes Unspoken

Please Don't Doubt Anymore..

2012-02-01T10:36:00.002+08:00

Some prepared themselves..
In any case they were to fall in love with another when in a relationship.
But for me...
I want to make it last
You are a friend.
A good friend.
A best guy friend.
Any guy a girl could ask for.
When I'm with you,I don't feel any mask covering me.
Instead...
I'm being myself,comfortable, and I like that.
I can share almost anything with you.
But do know that I built trust slowly..
I'm glad you appear,I really do.
So B..
I'm slowly falling
It's no longer an attraction.

Just Let Me Be

2012-01-26T14:39:00.002+08:00

I've found someone that I've always been looking for.

It came in co-incidence.

I feel happy,really contented.

So please,just please let me be..

Feelings comes unplanned and we all know how we can't avoid them.

Kekasih

2012-01-25T10:39:00.002+08:00

I found myself falling in love.
And I'm in love
Loving You To Bits<3

Nuthing Bad

2012-01-24T18:14:00.000+08:00

I'm pretty sure that it's nuthing bad.
Nuthing Bad..
Nuthing Bad...
Nuthing....

Ups & Downs

2012-01-23T13:27:00.004+08:00

Ladies you'd love to meet

Right after the release of my examination results...things really got bad.
Not only are there problems in deciding where I should go(well,dad made it much complicated) but also at work.

No,it's not the usual 'Im afraid that Ive done a mistake' or the usual 'Damn it's gonna be tedious'. It's more to a case where I'm being the scapegoat. Of course it takes two hands to clap,and everyone have a part to be blamed. I spoke the straight up truth,so I can confidently say that,I did not make up any stories. Damn..Why do this have to happen? I'm pretty sure it'll safely pass,but I still have a bad feeling about it. Oh Gosh...

Education do play a part in the days where I feel pressured. I want to make my own decisions but at the same time,my future decision has to be decided with my family. Of course,they've seen more than I do,and have been through more shytes..But I too want a part to play. :/ It's okeyy,as long as I pay for my education and school fees and study a little harder,much harder than before,i'm pretty sure that I could make it.

I'm having complicated feelings as well as complicated situation. They are both however separated,but joined in a wayy that I can't describe. Right when I moved on from the previous dude(due to circumstances) that i grew feelings for,another good soul came along as an another choice. Then he came again,right when I thought everything would be over.
I'm pretty sure that I'm not the only one that has been through this.
At times like this,we really have to think and be a little bit selfish,and do a little bit of give and take. Hard truth; we can never please everyone around us.

I'm caught and I'm kind of lost again. This is when I need to go real slow to anyone around me. Why is this happening mann? Maybe God is giving me a test that I'll have to take and it's either my choice to pass it or fail it. This is when I have to start thinking about the future. I mean,c'mon, once we reach the late teens we'll know that our turn for marriage is gonna come, and that we're not gonna stay young forever(though we could stay young at heart).

Some are okeyy with getting into a relationship and if it doesn't work out, just break up. I just, don't think that wayy. To me,after my last 6 exes, I've learnt more about myself and that I would just wanna get into 1 relationship and just hold on to the end. This also contributes to the reasons why I prefer to just date around because the dudes will never own you, and that if you are seeing another dude,they can't do anything about it(though I DO feel bad,really bad actually). I mean,life is short right? And women quality drops as we get older,another hard truth.

So now,I shall just see whut the paths leads me to. Most definitely, I cannot fall and get trapped, and tripping is risky.

Complicated

2012-01-23T13:21:00.002+08:00

Really,things are so complicated right now.

It's Been Quite Awhile

2012-01-23T13:11:00.002+08:00

It's been quite awhile right? teehee.
It's already the 2012,and we're all still alive!!! Yay!!! I'm 23 days late but...who cares :P
Almost 3 years single,not really a big deal, really. It's just a status. However,I did learn more about myself and I learnt more about the different types of dudes. I still have many to learn though but,slowly by slowly I'm pretty sure I'll learn more :)

Life keeps on going,though it might get shitty at times. Well,those shitty time will pass anywayys :)
I'm still finding myself as well as finding my feelings back...well,I'm glad to say that,I'm slowly finding it again after these years :)

Every.Single.Day

2011-06-17T14:50:00.003+08:00

Oh Flu.

Why are you getting worse Each Day?

I give you medications..

But nuthing worked.

Please go away...

It's been so many months.

Awesome New Friends

2011-06-17T14:28:00.004+08:00

Heyy people!

So on 15th June to 17th June 2011,my family and I were away for a short vacation,in Singapore. Pretty Aweseom cause' you don't really have to worry about having long trips in the bus.

We checked in Costa Sands Chalet at Sentosa,Kampung Style. 3 days 2 nights. The purpose of that is because we had 2 days entry pass to Universal Studios Singapore. So yep2! The 2 days there were AWESOME I swear. The Roller Coaster was of course the best for me(cause I Love thrills).

Many things happened and during the second day in USS,we met and made new friends :D Co-incedently,they lived at Compassvale(the siblings),the place where my family used to stay. I swear they looked familiar. Even my siblings said so. haha,anywhos,those whom you met today are the people whom had crossed path in your life :D

There was 3 of them and there were 3 of us. Perfect! haha :D So we ran and took the coasters again and again. We got along well cause everyone is open minded :P

Those new friends my siblings and I made friends with were Anna,Chanelyn and Clarence. heeee

There's so many to tell but i guess it's much more Awesome if you guys experienced it as well.

Gotta go now!

Tata!

Came Across My Mind

2011-05-21T23:24:00.002+08:00

Many times,the thoughts of you came across my mind.

But whut matters is...

Have I ever came across Yours?

Age?

2011-05-09T14:53:00.002+08:00

Heyy there.

Well,is age really just a number?

As a matter of fact,it is! It IS a number,hahaha. K lame =_=...

Whut I'm trying to say is,age doesn't really have to be a BIG issue. Not if you look at the sense of maturity and wiseness of that person. Sometimes,you can't help it but to just,Fall for someone younger. Well,if things worked out great,why not? Just make sure the guy looks older than you(hehehe).

We are teenagers now,and of course,most of us would think that this is puuuurrreeee disgusting. However,when you're at 18 years old and aboveyou would tend to think the other way round(not all though). Sometimes,you might even fall for someone who's MUCH older than you. For say,5-6 years?(thats quite and age gap aye?) Feelings comes unexpectedly and you don't plan do you? It comes when you least expected it. That's whut that kept life interesting doesn't it? hahaha.

So I guess that's all,this is just my short P.O.V.

Tata!

Sacrifices

2011-05-05T17:07:00.002+08:00

Sometimes...

I'm just so sick and tired of giving in..

Making sacrifices...

Making others happy BUT myself...

Feeling frustrated with myself.

But I know,that I have to keep being patient.

Maybe all of these are my tests.

God,please give me more strength.

I Too

2011-03-27T20:16:00.001+08:00

I too...

Wanna fall in love with a beautiful man...

Take sweet pictures together...

Hang out and have fun together...

Take a crazy right together...

And most definitely...

Be in each others arms.

Falling in and out

2011-03-15T02:57:00.001+08:00

Sure,everyone has experienced heart ache.

Me too.

Well, I shall just move on.

Cause' life's short and there are always options.

Cheers

I Wish

2011-03-10T20:28:00.003+08:00

I just wish..

That you would message me out of the blue.

Without having to think twice.

Oh..Jebal.

School and Feelings

2011-03-08T17:09:00.004+08:00

Heyy :)

School's been pretty hectic. Or issit just me? ahas..

Been trying to paced up with my DnT while revising and practicing maths. Wahlauweh... So hard to handle,hahas. K,im complaining too much. I know i can do it,it just...takes...time.

Niwaes!

I'm officially into someone! hahaha. Just into,nuthing more. Not expecting anything also. hahah.

K..im blank.

A Lil Update About My Feelings

2011-03-06T07:37:00.003+08:00

Heyy :)

Ever had that intense crush on someone, and didn't expect it to last long? I'm sure you guys did,because i do too.

I easily get crushes,and easily move on from them. However,in these rare occasion,my crush lasted up till now.

Well,there was this guy that i,can say,like. It's funny somehow,cause i'll always get these butterflies feelings whenever he's around,or near me. I'll smile to myself,and sometimes,i didn't even realise that i was grinning!Couldn't help it though. Whut to do...I'm a girl afterall.

I noticed him last year. He was once a classmate,but i didn't really talked to him. That's probably because it was the 1st year in secondary school,and cliques were everywhere.

Years goes on and it was my 5th year,but i was still in Sec 4(retained). We were in assembly,and i was sitting beside my loud but funny girlfriend. We were talking and i happen to take a glimpse behind. I saw someone,whose kinda cute,sitting quietly. I then whispered to my funny friend,"He's kinda, cute,the one at the back. But don't turn."

Assembly soon ended. I took a glimpse of him again. "Not bad" i thought. Maybe he's just another crush. And i was certain that this crush would go away soon.

But i was wrong.

I noticed myself noticing him,and as days went on i managed to "get to know him". He has that quiet charisma. And when he smiles,I can feel all those butterflies in my stomach flying around fast. It was so charming(his smile) ^_^

No i don't stalk,i just happen to notice him(automatically) and maybe observe a lil. There were times that i would give him a smile when he happens to look. And when he smiles back,i can feel my heart pumping ever so much faster than usual. Good thing that i can't blush!

There were a few occasions that i would actually strike up a conversation with him,and when he replied,i can feel myself getting excited. His voice is so soothing to hear! He talks in such a polite,friendly and smiley manner. He's kinda mysterious at times,and it makes me even more curious to get to know him. However,being a coward i am at times,i didn't manage to let whutever words or questions in my mind reach to him.

It stays that wayy till this year.

Miracles(hehe) happened on 14th Feb. I finally had a first chat with him!! And Myyyyyy Goooossssh,words aren't adequate enough to describe my feelings. From 14th Feb onwards,i was given a chance to get to know him better.

I've always wondered how he's like in person,and it came true. He's a smart guy and im sure he's hardworking(secretly,haha). That particular day spent had gained me some knowledge in studies as well as getting to know him. He's a friend now,and i feel so glad. Because really,talking to him or even giving smiles is enough to keep me feeling joyful ^_^

So now..Whutever happens,happen,because things always happen for a reason.

I have never expected this feelings to last. I noticed him unplanned. Well,feelings always comes unplanned.

I'm pretty sure he doesn't return the same feelings...but it's okey. ^_^If it's meant to be,then it's meant to be,hahas.

Kk,i gtg now,hahas. Good morning! :D

Whut's Up

2011-02-22T16:03:00.001+08:00

Nuthing much to post.

Nuthing much to say..

All i know is that,

I've not been well these days.

Gosh,please heal.

Missing You

2011-02-20T00:22:00.002+08:00

Heyy Blog! I am Missing YOU babey!

Niwaes.

School's been really hectic. I felt like i hardly have any time to rest! And i've been left behind. I really felt like im the Dumbest in class. No i'm not being sensitive. Those who has been in my position,knows how it exactly feels like. It's so stressful!!!

But..As someone said, "Since it's the last year. You should give it your all!". hahaha,jyeah,that's so true ^_^

Niwaes again,here's a much happy update.

I've finally chatted with this person after 1 year! Heeeeeee,i'm grinning widely :DDD

Hearing that person's name is enough to make me smile. Moreover chat! hahahaha :P

Perhaps i'm smitten(like whut my buddy said)

I guess that's all,shall update again soon :)

Tata!

One Of The Bad Days

2011-02-11T15:03:00.002+08:00

It was the Chingay miscommunication. Pissed enough but it's my fault. So ya.

Im really...pissed at these lil kiddo. Kids nowadays should really appreciate food and not complain about whut they don't eat and whut they eat. Also,when they get to eat whut they WANT to eat,they won't finish it up. Wastage of food. When we tell them to learn how to appreciate and learn to eat, they would CRY. It's not that they don't eat that particular food,they just don't want to. Annoying Prat.

Urgh..Im just so pissed and annoyed at so many different things.

I'm sorry for blabbering here but i really need to.

Bye..

At Work

2010-12-25T08:32:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas Everyone!!

I'm at work right now,slept damn bloody late, woke up damn bloody early. I felt as if i'm going to school.

Talking about school, i've not done my homeworks!!! And,i don't know where my english homework is at. Probably hiding away from me and and saying "Don't get me done don't get me done! I want you to get scolded!!" hahaha. K,lame. I'm booorrreeeddd!

Later gonna meet my Momy after work and shop for shoes. I seriously NEED them mann. I don't even have a proper Wedges or Platform to wear!!!Gonna get the one that could last longer :)

I guess that's all,i'm in a blank state right now,hahahaha.

Happy Christmas Again :)

Being In Someone's Arms

2010-12-23T13:47:00.002+08:00

Even after all these times.

I can't really imagine myself being in someone's arms anymore.

Gosh Deal..

You're already starting to get afraid of falling.

But i do,am,able to imagine for 1.

There's just 1 for now.

The one that I go Head Over Heels for.

I Made It

2010-12-19T11:38:00.001+08:00

I Made It..

I made it to O's with 16 points.

Sibeh Happy ^_^

One year retake wasn't a waste,wee!!!

^_^

Why

2010-12-15T01:13:00.001+08:00

I was awakened at 6.30am yesterday.

My throats were dried up.

The surrounding was suddenly so humid.

And my eyes were dry.

I didn't wanna get up.

So i tried shutting my eyes again.

Thankz God it wasn't anything.

Re-Bound

2010-12-14T14:49:00.001+08:00

Like whut my besties said...

Girls,

Be aware of guys who's searching for re-bound.

Thoughts About the Impossible

2010-12-10T03:46:00.002+08:00

Apart from wanting my dreams to come true and being smart..

I want to have that skinny lovely figure,

That sexy toned legs,

That flawless white skin tone,

and flat toned stomach abs.

Well..Everyone has their vain thoughts once in a while.

These are mine.

Avoid

2010-12-10T03:31:00.001+08:00

Whenever the question about studies and results pops up,

I just wanna avoid it.

I wanna avoid reality.

Failing exams is like the end of my future(though it's crap)

Damn..

Life.

Death

2010-11-30T02:24:00.002+08:00

There's alot of news on death these days.

Omogosh..

I'm getting scared.

Random Thoughts of my Fantasy

2010-11-27T15:54:00.002+08:00

Greetings. :)

Ever since my so called "fairytale" ended last year,i couldn't find the reasons to believe in fairytale again(except for EyeCandies,hee). For sure almost ALL guys flirt even when they are in relationship. It's guys nature. Even fathers does that. For that part,ill understand.

I've met plenty,but i'm never sure of whut i'm feeling. Even when they seemed okey and they're my cup of tea,i never wanna accept the facts. Whut my girlfriends said was true,maybe i'm not ready. Perhaps,it' s because of the sour memories that i will get reminded of. I was so naive,i admit.

It'd be great to fine someone different,who will know me quite well,knows my flaws,who'll make me smile,who can find the right words to say at the right moments,more to talks instead of intimacy all the time and whom,is my friend as well. Well,i'm sure it'll come. I'll just have to wait,date around,chill.

For now,i'm glad i've met a few whom are nice,fun to talk to,interacts well,have certain things in common,a bit of a geek(hehe) and a free spirit,family guy,positive about life and quite hardworking,and at the same time,having an open friendship. Yayness :) These people definitely changes my point of view about "fairytales". I'm glad :)

For now,all those single ladies and gentlemen,just mingle around :) , as life is too short for you to be 100% decent. Flirting isn't bad,overflirting is. Even girls flirt with girls,and guys flirt with guys. You'll see whut i meant,and i'm not talking about gays and lesbians. Flirt is in our nature. You flirt with customers to make them feel nice about themselves and such.

I guess that's all :)

And oh,i'm wishing for the day when we could have a Triple Date. hehe. Let's hope it'll come true alright :)))))))

Tata now ^_^

Pictures and Dissapointment

2010-11-26T21:06:00.002+08:00

Heyy ^_^

I'm not being a B.H.B here,but i can't deny the facts that most of my pictures looks nice,which makes me looks nice too ^_^ Which,makes it nice to look at :P

However,i don't like it.

You see,i received many friends add,and it puts me to fear about their judgment on how i really looked like in real life. Nope,i don't usually edit my pics,but the angles of the camera makes me looks nice.

On the good note,this will be a test. Whether those who added me really wanna get to know me for who i am,or,they just wanna get to know me because of looks =_='

So,everything in life has its Pros and Cons.

On a positive notes,the girl whom you see in the pictures are definitely,still me.

Tata!

Names

2010-11-26T20:54:00.002+08:00

Heyy ^_^

For sure,i used nicknames on CyberWorld. Why? So that i can keep my real identity private.

Anything can happen to you.

If you post pictures,they may edit it,make it vulgar,then put it all over the net,stating your real name. No wayy out then. Sure,these are rare occasions,but always be prepared.

So heyy! I'm known as Deal,Deal Rabbit,Deal Lee and Deal Dangelz. :)

Tata! :D

Falling In Love & Guy Bestfriend

2010-11-26T00:43:00.005+08:00

Heyy there :)

It is true that,you don't have to be in a relationship, to be in love. In fact,you can be in love as and when you like it :)

Throughout my years of growing up,i noticed this habit of mine.

I prefer to fall in love with someone whom i've actually known,or someone whom i've known in the past.

Well,maybe that's because i feel comfortable with the person,and that i've seen most of his flaws. Therefore,there'll be less turn off( i do get turned off easily,but i'll overcome it). It's really hard for me to meet a stranger and get things going on. It's just me. However,if i feel naturally connected with him,then why not? *chuckles*

Along the wayy,i do wanna have a guy bestfriend(inspiration came from Tumblr).

A guy bestfriend,is someone who's just there to complete your whole set of friendship. I want a guy bestfriend whom i(and him) don't mind getting mistaken for a couple. A guy bestfriend whom will be there when i needs him and when my Girlfriends isn't around. He will be there warning me about boys that are bad for me. He'll be there to stick his leg up my boyfriend's ass when i'm hurt. He'll be there to comfort me and make me laugh when i cry. He's automatically my date on special occasions when both of us are single. He'll be there to protect me. He'll be one of the few who knows me exceptionally well. He'll be there to make me feel like a child when i really needs it. He'll be the one whom many will say,"Aww,they look so sweet together".

He's someone whom i'll instantly feel and say,"Jyeah,he's the one".

I need a guy bestfriend,a real one that is.

Well,it's normal for us girls to dream about these kinda things.

Maybe i already have them,but i'm not sure who.

Oh well..

I guess that's all.

Tata :)

Sibeh Restless

2010-11-25T00:04:00.003+08:00

The longer i'm in..

The more i feel restless.

Wanna jog.

But i feel so damn bloody lazy.

Whut's up with me these days?

I don't feel myself.

But wait.

I'm never myself whenever i'm here.

You gotta let your ego go Deal.

And just ignore 여동생.

Think Positive.

Think Positive

Think Positive.

But i can't...

I'm just too irritated.

2010-11-24T16:34:00.000+08:00

When will it end?

Alone

2010-11-23T21:47:00.002+08:00

Shall i just be a loner for the moment?

Seems like it'll solve every.single.thing.

Nightmare

2010-11-23T15:50:00.002+08:00

Had a badd night,and a bad dream.
I'm now at my dads,woke up early in the morning just to place the letter beside him when he's asleep.

About the dream..
I dreamt about someone that i do not want to dream about at all. It's a nightmare alright. It was a nonsense dream but it's scary.
I dreamt that he came back begging for me,and i said, "No! Get out! I will never have feelings for you ever again". It was raining cats and dogs,with a dark and gloomy scenario. Thunders and lighting were booming and striking. The lighting was so bright and vivid,while the thunder was so loud that i could feel the surrounding shakes. My house was located at the top floor,corner. But it wasn't just any ordinary corner. It's interconnected with another house but all i can see from my house is the other house's rooftop.
He was still there begging. Suddenly,he ran up to the rooftop to wait for himself to get strucked by lighting. The weird thing was,he transformed into a cat! Looking very helpless,symphatetic and scared. (I guess it's kindness and symphathy that got me all naive)
I was lost,i didn't know whut to do. Without any signal,the lighting strucked to him(the cat). In that instant i cried and agreed that he could come back to me. However,my feelings weren't there. I did that just so i could save a life. The cat went down the rooftop and it turned into a human again. There he was, smiling and grinning.
He went into my room(cause there was no one),and started to get intimately physical with me. I tried to struggle. I feel so scared,so helpless that i cried. He then whispered,in a tone that will send shivers down your spine, "You're mine now,so there's no where else for you to run." I tried to scream but nothing came out. I started to pray and pray and plead God to wake me up.
After several attempt,i managed to wake up.

Here i am,all awake,fresh and clean. My head's spinning and i feel weak. It's like i could get a black out anytime soon. I dunno whut's wrong with my system today.
I'm out. I'm still feeling frightened about the dream.

Peace out.

Fear

2010-11-23T00:36:00.004+08:00

It's 12.37 am right now,and i'm at my mums crib. Sure,this is another frightful day of my life. I've been too messed up. Wait.. I've always been messed up.
Today's just another day of a frightful night.
Here i am,typing with trembling fingers with an uneasy breathing pace.

I started the day with a bright cheerful atmosphere,and dressed up decently for the mass interview. Went to many kinds of outlets and most of them were the same reply. Since it's money that i need,i'm prepared to face all of the requirements. Except for one exception,my dad.
I've always listened to him(almost all the time actually),and there's just so many times that i dissapointed him and simply put his words aside. Sure,im always doing this for one word,Freedome,and I know im not the only one in the world whos experiencing this,but this is my story.
Going to interview=Going out and jalan jalan.
I'm simply out for fresh air,and well,everybody needs it right? I've been a couch potato for far too long. Parents are always concerned about who we're mixing with,and i clearly starting to understand why....

The second person whom i've always been afraid of is my dad,then comes my mums. But you know who the first is,suchan obvious answer. Sure,it's always good that you fear your parents,cause it kinda shows a sign of respect to the elders decision. Knowing we human beings,we tend to rebel. I didn't mean to be home late,but i was already late. I feel scared,frighten,helpless. I don't wanna face the consequences(thats the problem),and which,cause me not to picked up his calls and listened to his roaring voice. I feel safe at my mums for now,but tomorrow's gonna be another story. I dunno whut's gonna happened but i hope it'll turn out fine.

I feel so uneasy. I can't sleep. I won't sleep. I've been messed up far too many times,and it's always about the same old thing. I'm not used to it,i won't ever be. I'm feeling so scared right now,frightened.

I know no matter whut,you can't ever escape the consequences.

I can't type anymore,i needa stare into blank space.

My Favourite Eyecandies(Not In Order)

2010-11-14T14:19:00.013+08:00

Introducing...

MY EYECANDIES!!!!!!!!!!!!

Park HyunCheol(Karam) from D-NA

Singer/Dancer

Cute,Adorable,Pretty,Friendly,Nice,Smiley

Mun Jun Yeong from DnT

Singer/Dancer

Cute,Happy-Go-Lucky,Nice

Cho KyuHyun from Super Junior

Singer/Dancer
Smiley,Friendly,Adorable,Nice,Charming,Playful

Rupert Grint

Actor
Dorky,Adorable,Nice

Tom Felton

Actor
Hot,Sweet,Smiley

Kim Jae Joong(Hero) from DBSK

Singer/Dancer
Cute n Hot at the same time,Smiley,Nice

Yang Yo Seob from B2ST
Singer/Dancer

Cheerful,Friendly,Adorable

Vic Zhou from F4

Actor/Singer
Hot,Adorable,Charismatic

Jerry Yan from F4

Actor/Singer
Hot,Adorable,Smiley,Friendly

Kevin Woo from U-Kiss

Singer/Dancer
Abit Soft,Nice,Friendly,Cute,Happy-Go-Lucky

Lee Min Ho

Actor
Nice,Friendly,Smiley,Charming

Lee Jae Jin from FT Island

Singer/Bassist
Smiley,Adorable

Lee Hong Ki from FT Island

Lead Singer
Happy-Go-Lucky,Cheerful,Playful,Adorable,Nice,Hyper

(Left)

Kim Hyung Jun from SS501

Singer/Dancer

Playful,Cheerful,Charming,Adorable,Friendly

(Right)
Kim Ki Bum from U-Kiss

Singer/Dancer

Cute,Pretty,Smiley

*~Both Of Them Are Siblings by the way~*

NicKhun Buck HorVejkul from 2PM

Singer/Dancer
Kind-Hearted,Cute,Handsome,Hot,Friendly,Nice

Jo Kwon from 2AM

Singer/Dancer

Playful,Cheerful,Funny,Adorable,Nice,Entertaining

Park Jae Beom

Singer/Dancer
Friendly,Cool,Hot,Nice,Playful

Lee Jin Ki(Onew) from SHINee

Singer/Dancer
Cute,Adorable,Friendly,Dorky,Nice,Playful
Lee Tae Min from SHINee

Singer/Dancer

Friendly,Nice,Cute,Adorable,Hot,Playful

HEE^^ There's more but i shall update next time^^

Tata!

All pictures and credits goes to the respective owners. These pictures are not owned by me.

This is a form of promoting the bands.

All rights and reserved goes to the copyright owners.

Feel Better

2010-11-10T00:47:00.002+08:00

Heyy^^

See that picture above? I'm planning to work out and get that stomach. Woohoo!! Not now,maybe next year (hehe). Too lazy to move my ass around.

To me,when someone wanna change a part of them or something about them,it's not about wanting to earn more attention,but to make themselves feel better. Like me! I wanna have that figure ^^ Stomach to be exact ^^

hahaha.

I feel like putting hair extensions. Can't wait to have long hair again,kinda starting to miss it(lol,i know,after a year ^^ ). But! It'll be a waste of money,so i guess no need. I think i shall just enjoy the moment of having this hairlength. ^^

I guess that's all!!

Tata!:D

안녕

2010-11-06T02:23:00.003+08:00

Yah! 오빠 ^^

내 생각은..

니가 좋아

Work It!

2010-11-05T03:07:00.001+08:00

Re-read my post.

I've always said I wanna prove my dad wrong.

Guess my will isn't strong enough.

I needa change that part of me.

God please assist me.

Past Questions

2010-11-05T01:03:00.004+08:00

I've grown, i know.

And there's still this particular question that lingers.

How different was i in the...past?

Happyness

2010-11-02T23:37:00.004+08:00

Heyy!!

Well hello ^^

Yes! I've been really happy these days,and i love that feeling.

Never knew i could change my perspective about staying at my dads(minus the part when i wanna let loose and go out freely). haha. I'm starting to bond more with my lil sis and opening up,throwing away bits of my ego that prevented me to show love.

Anyways!!

I've been choreographing and brushing up my dance moves. That wouldn't happen without my inspiration suchas Min from Miss A,Hyoyeon from SNSD,Kak Zee from Fhunkie Stylerz and Lydia. Oh,and Shasha and Mai for being there wimme when we first started ^^ Wee!!!

Okey,enough enough ^^

I find myself smiling when i think of someone,hahaha. Maybe it's just a short infatuation? I dunno.. If it is,it's a nice one ^^ Being friends with this person is just so great. He's like one of my buddies that i can talk too. Well,not that openly yet till my flaws can be seen of course. haha.

Wee!!!

I must be madd. Oh,applied for a job under Wing Tai company. If i get the position,i might either be posted at Diva, Dorothy Perkins or G2000. Hope we get into the job together Mairah!!! :DDDDDDDDD

KK,i guess that's all ^^

Tata ^^

Fear,Nightmare

2010-10-27T14:51:00.006+08:00

Mairah and I!

Well hello! :D

Okey i seriously do not know whut is up wimme today.

I had a damn bloody nightmare this morning.

I dreamt that i was sleeping and i could not get up. But i swear,the dream was so vivid! It feels so real. Then some kind of clown(i can feel that it's a clown) was next to me(i hate clowns). I keep calling for my dad and he didnt came. During that incident,something was knocking at the side of my bed. After several attempt,he came and say some prayers while taking out something out of me. He then told me that it was some stuffs that a monkey/clown ghost put inside of me.

This is the freaky part..I woke up,i'm aware of the surrounding,but i was half awake. Meaning i can only squint my eyes and not more than that. I saw the kitchen light on. I was glad at first,but soon changed to fear because I couldn't get up. My whole body was pressed down,like something was sitting on me. It is a believe that when that happens,something unseen is sitting on you(yes it's true). I prayed whutever i know in my heart,slowly and i try to remain calm. After that,i tried to wiggle. I forced myself to no matter whut. I only managed to shake my head from side to side. Finally,i managed to open my eyes and sit up. I thankz God that it was over mann. I checked the time and it was 6.17a.m. Got up from bed,washed my mouth,took Wudhu then prayed. Damn,i hope things like that won't happen again. It's been a long time since that happened to me.

It's time like this when i wished that my dad or momy would rushed to me and wake me up. Then either one of them would sleep by my side and pat me to sleep. hahas. I'll feel totally safe and calm.

I hope this dream won't mean anything. Cause' many time of my life,when i dreamt of something.it has meanings and it will happen. Yes,it does happen. I fear this..But i have to have Faith.

K,i shall go off now.

Tata! :D

Cake For You?

2010-10-26T15:35:00.003+08:00

Heyy :)

So it's a Tuesday today. Tomorrow i shall be baking a cake ^^ For some special reason,ehee.

Just hope it will turn alright. My lil bro will be helping me out(he's an expert).

Along with that,i'm gonna do whut i usually does, writing card! Gonnamake it a nice one. I don't really have much materials here at my dad's,but i'll have it done with whutever i have. :)

Finally i can start baking. Gonna bake more if i have a job ^^ It's a holiday so why not? Just hope i won't put on weight like last year again. Sheessh..

I feel like eating Chocolate Muffin,at this point of time. Dad always buy for me muffin when i was younger. I just love the taste,especially when it's moist and rich in chocolate,yums! Speaking of which, it kinda reminds me of someone, hahas. Shall not name it :)

마핀..달검한 마핀 ^^

I guess that's all for today ^^

Tata!!!

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As i ponder,while looking for a job

2010-10-26T01:08:00.002+08:00

Heyy!

Here i am again. hahaha :D

Nights like this,when studies are all placed aside, i wonder how it feels like to be in a relationship again (I know i'm not the only one). Will it turn out like last time? Or will it lead me to a different chapter. For sure,different relationship has different experiences. I wanna experience the diffrent kinds of love. haha :)

I love getting this butterflies in my stomach..haha.

Whut scares me the most is,how every good things in life will have to end. haish..Let's not worry too much on that. Whutever happens,happen.

So yep!!

I was with Mairah the whole afternoon at town,for job interview and then jalan jalan for awhile. After the interview,both of us decided not to take on the job because we'll have to work 6 days straight and only 1 day off(on a weekday =_=).

Cotton on at orchard was having sales. Super cheap!!!! Heels for 5 freaking bucks!!! But i can't get.

Whyy???!!! Why issit sales when i have not much cash??? Idiot... hahahas

Anyways,went to meet Afiq and Cavemann at 6++,went makan then proceeded to Tamp Mall while the guys went off for Maghrib prayers.

Last choice,Coffee Bean. I hope we get the job. :DDDDDDD

Doa banyak banyak :D

Kk luhh,gtg now.

Nitez everyone!!

So..Mingle then friendships

2010-10-22T13:00:00.002+08:00

Heyy!

I'm back :)

It's a Friday today,and i'm starting to love it.

I love the fact that....

I'm starting to open up to my lil sis :)

Good Deal Good!!! Don't let your ego conquer your head :DDD

Let's see...Good news,all the good people are starting to re-appear in my life. Thank you God :)
I'm moving on with my life,as in,just moving on,looking for the best for me. Yes,it's true,my heart is fickle. However,once i set my heart on someone,it stays. Crushes comes and goes yea :) I dislike putting on hope. It's not that i have no faith,it's just that,at times,i'll feel stupid. Life is short,make it quick and simple. Be with who you wanna be with and avoid those whom you don't want to,cause' they'll waste your precious time.

Let's see...I'm currently meeting someone new in my life :) Wee!! Let's see how it goes.

My mum always tells me to mingle instead of sticking to one,because that wayy,we will understand our heart better and knows whut kinda partner is suitable. We're not gonna get any younger,it's time we learn to stand on our own two feet and learn to be wise. So if they say that you're a flirt,be proud of it :) A flirt will end up being the wise one in the future. :)

Hahaha,cool shyte aye? :DDD

Would you still love me now? haha. It's good to see my flaws :D as in,the other side.

Anyways,something bad is like,happening. I'm not gonna try to save anything. Cause' i don't see the point yet. Not gonna elaborate much yet,no time for this.

GTG

Tata :D

Heyy,Dusty Blog

2010-10-18T14:44:00.002+08:00

Heyy!

So it's been ages since i update my blog. Hee,sorry for the absence.

Now that exams are over and i have plenty of free time,i shall update whenever i'm free.

Let's update about the most recent news.

I'm currently letting my heart mingle. Confused,dumbfounded about my feelings.

More big new...

Kpop concert is this coming SATURDAY!!!!!! :DDDDDD

Happy to the MAX MANN!! woohhooo!! But first i gotta say a bbbigggggggg thankz you to Sheng Fatt Hunny :) Thankz you so much Sheng Fatt!! :DDDDDDDDD For everything :D. And Farah's cousin too,for the queue number :)

CATEGORY A BABEY!! Finally get to see SHINee live again :))))) And im excited to see the other groups as well. :DDD

I guess that's all for now ya :)

Annyeong :)

Random Thoughts About Happy People

2010-09-01T16:47:00.002+08:00

Maybe I should learn,to just vent out my anger,to just show it,to just create a big scene.

Instead of being the one,to just endure those things.

I've been through that far too many times,sometimes i get sick of it.

I know i'm not the only one.

Maybe whut i'm doing makes them understand that i know those feelings.

It's true on that part.

Well,maybe God's answering my prayers,to train me to be more patient(when im already am)

Just to say,never be surprise to see someone showing their anger if you've always seen them being so happy.

They being happy in just about everything doesn't mean they don't give a damn about life and failures. They just wanna look on the bright side and look upon all these things as an obstacle and something that they can improve on.

By being down,it's also showing their bad side,which they hate. Showing these emotions makes them feel like they're bringing people's day down.

Don't be fooled though,because when you test their patience,they don't give a damn about being mean. Maybe at that moment,not later on.

There's so much things about happy people. These are just some parts of it.

That's why,sometimes,happy people are just so hard to understand.

As Days Goes By

2010-09-01T00:40:00.001+08:00

It's great to feel that i accept new people in my life..again.

A Great Thursday

2010-08-28T15:42:00.003+08:00

Don't Mind My Oily Face. Just After A Game Of Bball

Heyy!!!

Sad,can't do much with my comp right now cause' my dad has just finished upgrading the system. Therefore,my hangul characters can't present at the moment.

Anyways!

My title says it all. ^^

So on a Thursday,recently,farah and i joined the chinese guys(ft Bahri) at Siglap CC . Thankz god there's Licheng along ^^ So you can guess who was there :)

It was Farah's Idea alright,but it was worth it ^^ Farahh!!!!!!,thankz for boosting my confidence up and letting me have that chance ^^ hehehe. My heart is still racing though. I still have this adrenaline feeling when i think of it.

So...I managed to get into a small conver with him :) Just a short worth one,together with his winning smile ^^ kyaaa!!!!! hahaha. Whut???? It's normal for girls to be like this okey ^^

Then we(me n farah) watch a game of soccer,which turns out to be funny because of the difference in reactions when the ball is flying towards their faces :DDDDDD

After watching for quite some time,me and farah retired to the basketball court and joined Wilson and Chin Khor in a game of basketball. Which then Darren and Jun Xian joined. Freaking fun i swear. My team was C.K and Khong. Farah's was Wilson and Darren. For Farah's condition,the guys can't jump :P haha!!! Freaking cute :)))) Farah,don't get mad ^^

Darren did some ballerina thing while i was chasing for the ball,and i feel like a dog mann,haha.

And then there's this incident that Wilson cause me to get into. That idiot. haha,only the people who were there knows,hahaha :DD Embarrassing. hmph.

That's not the only thing..haha. The biggest part on today's post was getting to get into a small conversation with him,together with his winning smile:DDD Weee!!!! hahaha. kyaa! I feel so happy :)

I guess that's all!!

Tata! :D

Life Is Sucha A Rush Nowadays

2010-08-15T03:27:00.002+08:00

Time passes really quickly.

It does not wait.

Let's do our best now

And enjoy after that.

Just Whut I Need To Say

2010-07-25T13:14:00.005+08:00

안녕!

Went to Sushi Don yesterday with my family on the dad's side to celebrate Mami's belated birthday,which actually falls on the 22 July. I seriously ate ALOT! Ate the Beef Teriyaki Set(which comes with the rice,fruits,soup and stuffs),then brownies,raw salmon,salmon sushi and etc. Omgosh,too many to mention. I dunno whut's up with my stomach. haha. Ate the most among my family members. My elder brother was close to vomiting because he was too full looking at me eating. hahahaha. Awesomenezz ^^ My weight's still the same,so,no worries. ^^

And now,is the time for me to post something..Something that happened on Thursday...Something really really REALLY embarrassing. ..
I GAVE COUNTLESS OF PUNCHES TO A CLASSMATE IN FRONT OF MY EYE-CANDY!!!!!!!!

Omgosh mann...I'm really speechless thinking about it again. That must be the biggest TURN OFF mann,even though he doesn't have the same feelings back towards me(i suppose)... BUT STILL! haish... :( :( :( :( :( I regretted doing that,i dunno whut i was thinking. I was really pissed at that time. Now i'm okey,duhh. And i'm okey with the stupid bomb thingy. C'mon,i felt down because i feel interior. I started to feel self conscious,that's why. But now i realised that those are just the imperfection of me,and come to think of it,it's funny. haha. Okey,damn,i'm insulting myself and laughing about it. haha...

But anyways,i still feel really embarrass when i see him around. Gosh man...WHY??!!!

haish...

It's okey,at least he get to see the natural part of me,ahahass...

K,enough of blabbering already. It's done :((

Loving My Family Night

The recent class i'm in. haha ^^

It's seriously a change this year,and i hope it'll be better ^^

I guess that's all ^^ GTG now.

Tata!!

The Moon and The Sky

2010-07-11T15:47:00.002+08:00

The Moon whispered something to the sky.

The sky heard it..

And it says..

Fall In Love.

Oh Heart

2010-07-11T05:13:00.002+08:00

Oh Heart...

Please be careful when you fall in love

Just a Flashback

2010-07-05T02:02:00.003+08:00

아직도 나 그대룰 잊지 뫁해

I'll never forget boy

헤어진지 벌써 몇 년이 지넜는지 몰라

그대 갱각만 하면 자꾸 눈물만 흘로

오눌 따라 왜 그렇게 네가 보고플까

창밖의 빗소리가 내 맘을 흔둘어 놔

사랑하지 말걸 그랬어
정주지 말걸 그랬어
붙잡지말걸 그랬어
왜 이렇게 나 혼자 아파
사랑하지 말걸 그랬어
정주지 말걸 그랬어
붙잡지말걸 그랬어
왜 이렇게 나 혼자 아파

난 항상 너만의 장미가
되려던 내 맘을 아니
이제 조각난 사랑의
마침표가 됐다는 걸
눈물이 밀려와
메마른 입술이 젖어
이제 어떡해
그댈 잊을 수 없어

*너 때문에 많이도 울었어 (매일 밤 난~)
너 때문에 많이도 웃었어 (그대 때문에)
너 때문에 사랑을 믿었어 (Wooh boy ~)
너 때문에 너 때문에 모두 다 잃었어
정말 답답답해 갑갑갑해 막막막해
너 없는 세상이
내 맘을 씹어놓고
자존심 짓밟아놓고
내 맘을 찢어놓고
왜 나를 떠나가

그날도 비가 왔었지
한참을 그댄 말없이
나를 바라보기만 했어 어어어어
흔들리는 눈빛과
애써 짓는 어색한 미소가
이별을 얘기해줘 줘줘줘줘

Rap)
나보고 떠나라고 할 땐 언제고
떠난다니까 어쩌고
미친 사람 취급만해
정말 힘들어 boy slow down
아무런 말도 못한 채 울어
cause I want to stay next to u
my luv is true, wanna go back 2 when I was with u

너 때문에 많이도 울었어 (매일 밤 난~)
너 때문에 많이도 웃었어 (그대 때문에)
너 때문에 사랑을 믿었어 (Wooh boy ~)
너 때문에 너 때문에 모두 다 잃었어
정말 답답답해 갑갑갑해 막막막해 너 없는 세상이
내 말맘을 씹어놓고 자존심 짓밟아놓고
내 맘을 찢어놓고 왜 나를 떠나가

I miss u… I need u… 꿈속에선 아직도 I’m wit u..
I miss u… I need u… 시간을 되돌려 wanna kiss u again ma boy…
맘이 너무 아픈데
견디기 괴로운데
너는 어디서 뭘하니 (나 울었어 참 많이)
너 없인 난 못살어
내게로 돌아와줘
날 떠나가지마

너 때문에 많이도 울었어 (예~)
너 때문에 많이도 웃었어 (많이도 웃었어 난~)
너 때문에 사랑을 믿었어 (오~예~) ~
너 때문에 너 때문에 모두다 잃었어 (너 때문에 나~)
정말 답답답해 갑갑갑해 막막막해 너 없는 세상이
내 말맘을 씹어놓고 자존심 짓밟아놓고
내 맘을 찢어놓고 왜 나를 떠나가

Translates:

I… still… can’t… get over you
I never forget…
Boy I never forget…. boy

Can’t remember how many years it has been since we broke up
But I cry every time when I think about you
Why I’m so eager to see you today?
The sound of rain droplets leaves my heart shaken up.

I regret giving you my love
I regret getting attached to you
I regret holding you back
Why do I have to face the pain alone?
I regret giving you my love
I regret getting attached to you
I regret holding you back
Why do I have to face the pain alone?

I tried to be your only girl
And did you ever understood my heart?
Now it became the compass
Of broken love
Tears are flowing down
And soaks the dry lips
Oh what should I do,
Now I can’t erase you out of my mind

I cried a lot because of you (I cried every night~)
I laughed a lot because of you (Because of you)
I believed in the love because of you (Wooh boy~)
I’ve lost everything because of you
I’m speechless, suffocating and lonely
The world without you has
Chewed out my heart
Stomped on my dignity
Torn apart my heart
So why did you leave me behind?

It also rained on that day
You’ve stared at me wordlessly
You’ve stared at nothing else but me
Those trembling gazes,
And the awkwardly forced smile
Speaks of our separation.

You’ve told me to leave
And the moment leave
You treat me as if I’m insane
It’s just too hard (boy slow down)
Then I cry silently and wordlessly
Cause I want to stay next to u
My luv is true, wanna go back 2 when I was with u

I miss u… I need u…
Even in my dreams I’m wit u..
I miss u… I need u…
Rewind back the time
I wanna kiss u again ma boy…
My heart aches
It’s too much to bear
And where are you? (I cried a lot)
Can’t live without you
Please come back to me
And stay with me

I cried a lot because of you (Yeah~)
I laughed a lot because of you (I laughed a lot~)
I believed in the love because of you (Oooh-Yeah~)
I’ve lost everything because of you (Because of you~)
I’m speechless, suffocating and lonely
The world without you has
Chewed out my heart
Stomped on my dignity
Torn apart my heart
So why did you leave me behind?

Life Has To Go On

2010-07-05T00:55:00.002+08:00

안녕^^

Every secondary school life has it's ups and downs right?

Well,mine too,and my ups and downs is probably about retaining.

One can never understand how it feels like to be in that position,no matter how much one tries.

Of course i don't think that life is over.

The first thing that went in my mind was,"How am i ever gonna get friends? How am i ever gonna go reccess? How am i ever gonna have to laugh again? And how am i ever gonna have someone to ask questions when i'm having difficulties in my homework?"

Yea,i know,it's very dramatic.

I thought life in class was gonna be lonely(i know i got you Mairah,don't worry).

But i was wrong.

I met this another wonderful bunch of friends,and they can be pretty idiotic at times.

Things changed,life changed. I'm more focused(i still do daydream at times). New kind of jokes and new kind of life in class.

I definitely do not wanna be left behind anymore by another wonderful batch.

I wanna make it together with them,cause' it's really fun having them around.

I'm loving 4n6 2010 ^^

Well,that's about it ^^

안녕^^

The Difference

2010-07-02T16:25:00.004+08:00

안녕 ^^

So i realised that i felt different this whole week.

I was slightly in better behaviour about my studies and homeworks.

I'm getting my interest in MATHS! Can you believe it??? But i still suck at it though,heh.

I still do need to buck up,as i'm not born clever. Hardwork is my only wayy out,yeah..

I need a laugh. Wait,i already have plenty of those with my classmates,haha. The Idiots ^^

Missing the old people too though. The rowdyness,haha.

Anyways,I think imma shred my old skins off. It's a change every year. Maybe not in my personality or looks or whutsoever,but more into the wayy i plan my life.

Of course, unplanned things do happen in your lives. I should start getting real and think ahead at the right times,and be immature (^^) at the right times,haha.

But seriously i can feel the difference in myself. There's something in me that's different. I don't really know whut it is,though. Maybe soon i'll find out.

Let things go with the flow

Yep2.

Crush is so adorable ^^ haha,okey..Awkward...

Anyways!

Had performance today,sang So Emotional by Christina Aguilera. I felt nervous,freaking nervous,but the cheers and supports my friends gave made me feel calm. I've learnt a few lessons on how not to feel nervous: Look at your friends when you feel nervous,because the moment you see them smile,you'll feel like you're not alone ^^ Another point is to just walk around and groove. Use the stage and have fun.

Wee!! I don't think i did awesome,but i think i did okey. I still need to work on it. I enjoyed the experience together with the other Bv Superstars. At first,i thought my instructor was very fierce and bias. Seriously. I felt that wayy. As time goes on,he's actually a very nice person. He's just strict when it comes to practices. Now i understand why^^ And i feel bad for misjudging him at that period of time. No no,i'm not against him,nor do i hate him. It's just whut i felt. ^^ And now that i've seen his down to earth side,my total impression of him changes(sincerely) ^^ Gonna miss him :) Vocal lessons are worth it^^

I've got nuthing more to say,and i'm at my dads now. I guess i gotta go!

안녕!

Greatest Mistake

2010-06-28T20:03:00.002+08:00

This is a story,probably about the greatest mistake i've ever made.

Yes,and it has a big impact on me,and my family.

Recently i went out..To the beach. And you could have guessed it now.

The greatest mistake i've ever made,is wearing a bikini top in public(i wore shorts instead of the panties thingy).

Some of you probably think that it's okey,and some no. I agree with the no. No,it's not okey.

It has a large impact of how people view on me,and cause my friendship ties to get messed up.

I wasn't probably thinking about the consequences ,and instead just going with the flow. Monkey see monkey do. I was dumb and foolish and immature.

Whut i've not noticed is that,this will haunt me till the future,and i have no escape for it.

People will view me lowly,and i've caused sins towards peoples eyes.

This image will never change.

No matter how hard you try,you can never get away from the thoughts of people about you.

I'm stupid,and i'm dumb. That's the only wayy i could refer myself as.

I've made my parents really upset,and this is the greatest wrong i've ever did.

Whut my dad said is true.

I'll never lead a bright life.

I'll lead a dark life instead.

Without any berkat,and instead dihina.

Image and how you bring yourself up is very important.

Words can't explain how i really feel.

This perhaps may not be the worst. But for a girl like me,it's the worst that could ever happen to me.

It's my fault.

Thankz for the memories and the day.

That's the last outing that we could ever have.

I'll have to cut ties with you guys.

Save you guys from the troubles.

Don't ask why,you'll soon find out.

Please understand my situation.

Yea,i know. I know i shouldn't have done that. But i realised whut i've really done,and that's all that matters now..

Its 12! 25th June 2010

2010-06-25T00:00:00.003+08:00

Happy B'day Dealya Wan shahirah Binte Shamsanni!

I'm finally 17!

And not forgetting,to thankz my Momy,for giving birth to me,

To see this wonderful world.

Going thru all the burden and pain just to make sure i'll stay alive.

I love you Family ^^

And friends :DDD

Hope today will be a greattttt Day!!! :DDD

사랑해요 !!!

Soon,It's Gonna Be My Day

2010-06-24T23:05:00.002+08:00

Heyy!!

boyy,i didn't know that i could look that young(my picture). hehe

In less than one hour,I'll be officially celebrating my 17 years of living.

Excited and i hope that it'll be a great day :)

Tata!

Times Like This

2010-06-23T21:27:00.003+08:00

It is times like this...

When I'm really feeling down...

And when words isn't an option..

That I need a hug from someone special.

Just hugs..

To calm this mind of mine.

When Is It?

2010-06-22T19:46:00.002+08:00

Even when you're single and not finding.

Sometimes..

When you see couples in pictures,couples walking and laughing together,

It makes you think,"When is mine gonna come?"

How awesome it'll be being with the one that your feelings are attached to(besides family and friends).

And of course,these are just random thoughts that strucked your mind.

I wouldn't mind waiting.

No rush.

TLOG Means Talking Blog

2010-06-22T18:23:00.002+08:00

Heyy!!

If you're wondering whut TLOG means. It means talking blog. I invented that word today(im not sure if it existed before). I thought that it's pretty cool ^^

So if i put TLOG-(Insert the tile),means it's a talking blog ^^

Enjoy listening to my voice,haha!

Tata!!

Tumblr

2010-06-21T22:03:00.002+08:00

Heyy!

I totally love that ninja look up there,hehe.

Shasha made Tumblr and it looks interesting to me.

I wanna try too!!

Here's the link^^

http://dealrabbit.tumblr.com

Of course,i'll still be posting in this bloggie ^^

tata!

Love and excitement

2010-06-21T03:22:00.003+08:00

It's not just one person who feels excited around the other person.

The other person has to feel the excitement as well.

~*Cheers*~

June Holidays,i don't feel it this time round

2010-06-17T23:46:00.003+08:00

안녕 ^^

For this year's June holiday. I don't feel like it's even holidays. Time passes so fast!

And most of the times,before i sleep..I'll always found myself wondering how my adult life is gonna be like and how long i'll be around in this earth.

So many things running through my mind. Yes,everyone has problems in their lives,EVERYONE.

I do have a problem of my own too, but i make it invisible and just be a bo-chup about it. heh.

Hope i can make it this time round,and graduate feeling like a true adult and step into a new life,while gaining my freedom. It's gonna come,i'm sure.

Feelings comes unexpectedly and no one can avoid it. The only thing we can do is,go along with it.

Enjoy the feeling while it lasts,for life is really short ^^

I guess that's all ^^

안녕

난 사랑에 빠졌죠. 하지만... :(

Feelings in Me

2010-06-11T13:43:00.002+08:00

Annyeong

I think i've fallen for someone. It's not a crush,it's more to a like.

I don't talk much to him,nor do i know his flaws. I think this is infatuation. Don't you think?

Should i hold on? Or should i just move on?

But

Something is telling me to just hold on,for now.

I'm not hoping(not anymore),i'm just gonna follow the voice in me.

Having feelings for someone is the greatest feeling to ever feel. I'm glad to feel it again now :)

Whut's Up

2010-06-08T13:14:00.003+08:00

I screwed up my performace for BV bazaar. I went pitchy(like whut the teacher's said). Damn. Im gonna change song for the real day mann. Something more to my kind of voice,and definitely something that i can relate to. haha.

Anyways,i suspect that my year this year won't be as great,heh.. Well,whuts new? haha.

Oh,i've put extensions on my hair :)) Pink and green,woo! I don't really care whut people might think,haha,i love the colour :D

K anyways,i've got nuthing much to say. Cause' I have spies all over. And Pop,i know you're reading this.

So tata!

Weird..you just came across my mind

2010-05-31T14:28:00.003+08:00

Each time i saw you,i just feel like giving you a tap and a Hi.

But there's a barrier,or is it just me?

When i see you with another gal,

there's this tiny bit of envyness that i'll feel.

How weird,cause' im not suppose to feel anything.

Forever this wayy it will be aye?

I gotta face it,this is life.

Some fades and some leaves footprints.

I kinda miss you at times.

Feeling A little Different

2010-05-23T15:16:00.001+08:00

Can i just dissapear? I don't feel me..I don't feel myself lately.

It's All Under My Understanding

2010-05-22T00:41:00.002+08:00

니 가 조 앟 자

진 자.

i totally ,iss the days when i was a kid!

2010-05-15T00:51:00.000+08:00

I'm into this Book

2010-05-09T02:07:00.004+08:00

Heyy! So i've been reading this book and im hooked on it!

Like seriously :)

Family draws them home,

Love makes them stay

Summary:

"Three grieving souls return home to Sweet Springs, New Mexico, and into the comfortable arms of family.

Back among relatives to help him raise his daughter, Jake Breland encounters his first love, Sara Tanner, who is also grieving for her spouse. Sharing the same family circle pushes them together, but are there too many past to build a future of love?

Rae Wellington hopes a trip home will heal her broken heart and convince her father to move to the city. She has no plans for a romance to make her want to stay, until she meets Luke Breland and the God who heals the brokenhearted.

Laci Tanner comes home to help her grandmother, only to fin a father and his motherless son who also need her. But can Eric Mitchell risk having somone who is determined to put small-town life behind her?

Can the healing found in coming home help this searching souls to love again? Will love grow strong enough to keep them from returning to the city?"

Anyways,here's a sneak peek of the story. I took it from some parts..

"She pulled to a stop at the curb in front of Ellie Tanner's house and hurried down the walk and up porchsteps. "Gram?" Sara called, opening the door. "You here?"

"Back here, sara. In the kitchen," came the reply.

Bypassing the living room, Sara hurried through the dining room into the sunny kitchen at the back of the house. The sight of Gram sitting at the table watching an adorable baby girl attempt to feed herself stopped Sara in her tracks. Her heart twisted and turned, and she forgot to breathe until Gram turned in her seat and said, "Sara?"

Sara forced the air out of her lungs and tried to smile.

Gram quickly got up and led her to a chair. "Oh, me dear sara. I'm so sorry. I didn't even think to warn you>"

Sara blinked quickly to hide the tears that threatened and shook her head. "No, Gram. It's fine. I. . . I just didn't expect to see a baby at your side." She forced her gazed off the child.

Sara patted the older woman's hand that still rested on her shoulder. "i'm fine, Gram. Really. But who is this little beauty? Who are you doing a favor for now?"

Gram gave Sara a warm hug and took her seat once more, handing the baby another chicken stick and being rewarded with a huge grin.

"This is my great-grandaughter Meggie, Jake's daughter. This is Sara, Meggie." She turned to face Sara. "He finally came to his senses and decided to move back home. He's going to join John's firm as a partner." Gram handed the baby a cup of milk as she continued her explaination. "They're discussing itall over lunch."

Jake. Back here. Sara's heart seemed to screech to a stop before it jumped into high gear. Her gaze snapped back to the baby. Jake's baby. The little girl has his miniature dimple--exactly like the one Jake had. Like the one she used to tease about, just so he'd grin at her. She'd stand on tiptoe and plant a quick kiss on the dimple before it disappeared. She shook her head to clear the vision she'd conjured in her mind.

Sara wasn't sure if she was ready to see her first love after all these years and all that had happened...."

Hahaha. That's all! Go get the book. It's worth to be read, i'm sure :)

Unexpectedness

2010-05-09T01:50:00.002+08:00

"Funny how when you didn't want to run into a person,

you couldn't seem to miss them,

but when you wanted to run into someone,

they were nowhere to be found"

New Mexico Weddings, Janet Lee Barton

Cancerous Foods and Products

2010-05-09T01:37:00.002+08:00

Heyy!

The title says it all

So for today's post,imma share with you some little information i got through my e-mail.

Take your own sweet time to read aite :)

INSTANT NOODLES

Dear instant noodle lovers,

Make sure you break for at least 3 days after one session of instant noodles before you eat your next packet! Please read the info shared to me by a doctor. My family stopped eating instant noodles more than 5 years ago after hearing about the wax coating the noodles - the wax is not just in the Styrofoam containers but it coats the noodles. This is why the instant noodles do not stick to each other when cooking.

If one were to examine the ordinary Chinese yellow noodles in the market, one will notice that, in their uncooked state the noodles are oily. This layer of oil prevents the noodles from sticking together.

Wanton noodles in their uncooked state have been dusted with flour to prevent them sticking together. When the hawker cooks the noodles, notice he cooks them in hot water and then rinses them in cold water before cooking them in hot water again. This process is repeated several times before the noodles are ready to be served. The cooking and rinsing process prevents noodles from sticking together.

The hawker then "lowers the noodles in oil and sauce to prevent the noodles from sticking if they are to be served dry. Cooking instructions for spaghetti require oil or butter to be added in the water when boiling the spaghetti to prevent the pasta from sticking together. Otherwise, one gets a big clump of spaghetti!

There was an SBC (now TCS) actor some years ago, who at a busy time of his career had no time to cook, resorted to eating instant noodles everyday. He got cancer later on. His doctor told him about the wax in instant noodles. The doctor told him that our body will need up to 2 days to clear the wax. There was also an SIA steward who after moving out from his mother's house into his own house, did not cook but ate instant noodles almost every meal. He had cancer, and has since died from it.

Nowadays the instant noodles are referred as "cancer noodles".

SATAY LOVERS (BARBECUE)

If you all eat Satay, don't ever forget to eat the cucumber, because eating Satay together with carbon after barbequing can cause cancer.

But we have a cure for that... Cucumber should be eaten after we eat the Satay because Satay has carcinogen (a cancer causing element) but cucumber is anti-carcinogenic. So don't forget to eat the cucumber the next time you have Satay's.

PRAWNS (SUGPO) & VIT C

DO NOT eat shrimp / prawn if you have just taken VITAMIN C pills!!

This will cause you to DIE in ARSENIC (As) toxication within HOURS!!

PORK AWARENESS

Try this and see whether the pork you bought has worms. There goes with your "Bak Kut Teh" for those who love it. Most men love to eat this so watch out before it's too late. If you pours Coke (yes, the soda) on a slab of pork, wait a little while, you will SEE WORMS crawl out of it. A message from the Health Corporation of Singapore about the bad effects of pork consumption. Pig's bodies contain MANY TOXINS, WORM and LATENT DISEASES.

Although some of these infestations are harboured in other animals, modern veterinarians say that pigs are far MORE PREDISPOSED to these illnesses than other animals. This could be because PIGS like to SCAVENGE and will eat ANY kind of food, INCLUDING dead insects, worms, rotting carcasses, excreta including their own, garbage, and other pigs. INFLUENZA (flu) is one of the MOST famous illnesses which pigs share with humans. This illness is harboured in the LUNGS of pigs during the summer months and tends to affect pigs and human in the cooler months.

Sausage contains bits of pigs' lungs, so those who EAT pork sausage tend to SUFFER MORE during EPIDEMICS of INFLUENZA. Pig meat contains EXCESSIVE quantities of HISTAMINE and IMIDAZOLE compounds, which can lead to ITCHING and INFLAMMATION; GROWTH HORMONE which PROMOTES INFLAMMATION and growth; sulphur containing mesenchymal mucus which leads to SWELLING and deposits of MUCUS in tendons and cartilage, resulting in ATHRITIS, RHEUMATISM, etc.

Sulphur helps cause FIRM human tendons and ligaments to be replaced by the pig's soft mesenchymal tissues, and degeneration of human cartilage.

Eating pork can also lead to GALLSTONES and OBESITY, probably due to its HIGH CHOLESTEROL and SATURATED FAT content. The pig is the MAIN CARRIER of the TAENIE SOLIUM WORM, which is found in its flesh. These tapeworms are found in human intestines with greater frequency in nations where pigs are eaten. This type of tapeworm can pass through the intestines and affect many other organs, and is incurable once it reaches beyond a certain stage. One in six people in the US and Canada has RICHINOSIS from eating trichina worms, which are found in pork.

Many people have NO SYMPTOMS to warm them of this, and when they do, they resemble symptoms of many other illnesses. These worms are NOT noticed during meat inspections.

SHAMPOO

Cancer-causing substance in shampoos. Go home and check your shampoo. Change before it's too late... Check the ingredients listed on your shampoo bottle, and see they have a substance by the name of Sodium Laureth Sulfate, or simply SLS. This substance is found in most shampoos; manufacturers use it because it produces a lot of foam and it is cheap. BUT the fact is, SLS is used to scrub garage floors, and it is very strong!!! It is also proven that it can cause cancer in the long run, and this is no joke. Shampoos that contains SLS: Vo5, Palmolive, Paul Mitchell, L'Oreal, the new Hemp Shampoo from Body Shop etc. contain this substance.

The first ingredient listed (which means it is the single most prevalent ingredient) in Clairol's Herbal Essences is Sodium Laureth Sulfate. Therefore, I called one company, and I told them their product contains a substance that will cause people to have cancer. They said, Yeah we knew about it but there is nothing we can do about it because we need that substance to produce foam. By the way Colgate toothpaste also contains the same substance to produce the "bubbles". They said they are going to send me some information.

Research has shown that in the 1980s, the chance of getting cancer is 1 out of 8000 and now, in the 1990s, the chances of getting cancer is 1 out of 3, which is very serious. Therefore, I hope that you will take this seriously and pass this on to all the people you know, and hopefully, we can stop "giving" ourselves cancer-causing agents.

Please, pass these information.

Whut's been happening

2010-05-02T01:02:00.003+08:00

Went out to Shasha's,then we sang birthday song to her mom. heee,HAPPY B'DAY!

And Shasha is one silly idiot :)) Has a fish but is afraid to touch em'. hahahahahahaha!!! :DDDDDDDDD

We played a lil' game with the fishes,hehe. FUN!! :D We felt like a child mann :D

Niwaes,gonna start practicing on my vocals and continue to do more revision. I tend to get my self distracted =_='. hahaha. And and,continue dancing. I've lost touch of it,but the flow is definitely there.

Hmmz,i think i have alot of eye-candies,but interested in a few,or maybe just one. Few people do cross my mind at times.

Oh,i've been getting nightmares. And recently i dreamt about two grandmother. :(((((( It's scary i swear. I dunno why. :((((((

i dunno whut else to type,hahaha

tata!

School and Eye-candy

2010-04-26T20:44:00.002+08:00

Annyeong!

So ive decided to change my eye-candy(which i do everytime,haha). I still do have abit of feelings but,crushes pass so yep. Or issit a like? omg,i think? Wait,i dont think so. Oh damn.

ANYWAYS.

On Saturday went to town for awhile with Tortoise :) Shes craving for Nasi Ayam Penyet so i followed her lor. Well,there's countless of eye-candies*drools*. hahaha. I didn't get to meet Mai cause i have to go off and meet my dad =_='.

So far my weeks have been fine,and today we had eng and malay paper one,and malay listeing comprehnsion. For malay listening compre,i sat at the front table cause my register number is 1. UNFORTUNATELY, it was in front of the teacher stable,where the radio is at. And damn,the volume is tuned up and you can imagine the loud sound. haha. Razdy was like,"siol uh Deal. Nie klau kau fail aku tak tau ape nak ckap." hahaha! LOL! That guy,funny mann.

After the whole thing end,made my way to the canteen and Naf baked Cheesecake. Heaven i swear!! I love the cheese part,yum! heee. Thankz for letting me eat it!

hahaha

So now im at my dads. Gonna do my revisions abit over here,before going back to my mums. hehehe.

So i guess i go off now! Tata!

annyeong :)

Saturday Irritants

2010-04-17T16:39:00.002+08:00

Yea,today is a Saturday and i expect it to be okey. But oh well,shit happens. Just SOME people had to irritate me with their attitude. Yes,its the both Libras. Oh damn,how irritated i feel. How i just wish sometimes,that i'm one hot tempered biatch and just let out all my vulgars and anger when something just piss me off. Too bad i'm not really like that.

Glad it's still in the afternoon.

Rain is pouring and i hope the night will be better.

Gtg,tata.

Awesome night

2010-04-13T01:37:00.001+08:00

Few hours ago we had Enchanting Moments. And i swear,it was a great night :D

Those Butterflies

2010-04-09T20:42:00.002+08:00

I love this ticklish feeling that im feeling.

This Butterflies in my stomach.

Oh,I miss this feeling.

I'm so glad to feel it again :)

Packed,Monday!

2010-04-09T20:08:00.002+08:00

Annyeong!

hehehehe.

It's already the month of April. Gosh,how time flies! I'm scared..

Been packed with aload of things,and i mean ALOT.

I can't wait for monday though. :D hehehe. For those who knows why,shh :P haha,adorable :D

Anyways...I dunno whut else to type. haha.

Well,i guess thats all!

Tata!

Annyeong :)

Your smile is just so adorable :D

As Complicated As It Gets

2010-04-03T21:16:00.002+08:00

So there's just some times,in our life,we tend to let ourself get confused, when the problems are actually easy to be solved.

Just some times,you are caught in between two people,or even afraid to move on,cause' of the mindset we set,that is "whut if whut i'm looking for is out there somewhere? Whut if i moved on and whut i've been looking for came? Whut if i made a decision and ended up regretting it later on?"

Just some times,you worry more about afterwards than whut is gonna happen in the present. And let opportunities pass because you think that you can't do it and those kinda thought such as "whut if i don't win".

I think,life is too short for worries that are unnecessary.

We tend to like the finer things in life and pushed away the less finer things in life. Never did we expect,the less finer things in life are actually the ones that made the finer things in life appear.

For eg,the toilet. Toilet is yes,a disgusting place to sleep in(the common mindset). But without the toilet,would there be a beautiful city? Without the toilet,i bet shits are left everywhere.

Same goes for losing. We love the feeling of Victory(who doesnt). But it's losing that makes you a winner,because you learnt from it and you realised your weaknesses.

So grab every opportunity you can. It's worth your experience.

About feelings..

Some listen to their heart,some uses their head,and some just depends on the opinions of friends. None of this is a wrong option,in fact,we need all three of these. You seek opinions from your friends,which will make you see things that you don't see. You'll then use your head to think of the solutions carefully and see the other options and do a comparison,and lastly,you'll ask your heart. Our heart is our source of sincerity. You know that you have done the right thing when your heart feels at ease.

So don't worry when there's someone in your life who says that you're dumb to listen to your friends. You're not dumb,you're just trying to make the right decisions. Of course,don't listen 100% to them. They are just giving you opinions. And never decide it as final if its your friends that are the one who decide it for you. Its your life,you decisions. ^_^

As for now,i know i'm still in the eye-candy world :) But i do have some stuffs going through my mind. And that is the one that i said in the second paragraph.

haha..

Shall not worry too much. Oh well,Girls just wanna have fun

My Weird Side

2010-04-03T00:38:00.002+08:00

Annyeong :)

Sometimes,there's just certain times that you didn't wanna talk to a friend. And you don't know why. No,you don't hate them. No, you don't dislike them. You just,don't wanna talk,and you don't know why you're feeling that way. Yes,that's exactly whut i experience most of the times(i'm sure you guyz do too).

Another one is about new friends. You made friends with them. Next few days,you just don't wanna hang out with them. But after a few days,you get back to normal. In that certain period of 'avoiding',you avoid because you just feel uncomfortable and insecure. But after that,you thought that it would be okay to let them in your life. And that's when you really start making friends.

About messages. This you have to take note. I'm the kind who will depend on my mood whether to message or not to message. I'm just lazy at it. haha. I won't do this to my new friends though,but to my friends and family members. Those who know me well already,haha. So when i don't reply back,its not that i don't like you,it's just that,i'm lazy to reply(even though sometimes afew % of it is because i do NOT wanna reply you,this is to a few peeps).

The major one that i noticed about myself,is about guys(boys,men). I'll list down all my flaws about whut i would like in a guy,but i will totally end up liking someone who's just,the opposite. It happens alot of times. And sometimes,i'll have a crush on the weirdest guys on earth(the ones which my friends oppose to). I'm sure everyone goes through this.

I just don't have a thing for hot guys,but rather those who are cute and there's just certain charms about them. hahaha :)

Anyways,check this out!!!

hehehe :)) Yay!!!! :DDDDD hehehehe

Kk,i guess that's all!

tata!!

annyeong :)

Time To Update

2010-03-27T23:57:00.002+08:00

Annyeong :)

So,i can finally update my blog. hahaha.

Been busy(as usuals),and been a dork(going home early every single day,i feel like i have no life). haha. Anyways,started my small revisions already. Now is like March?? OMG,time passes real quickly. :( In need of a job but i can't get one,time retstricted. Damn it. Let's not get stressed about time. Let's see what i've done this week:

Got home early

Danced

Eat

Sing

Bathed

Cycled

Short Revisions

Day dream

Sleep

And most of all,listening to my songs

Been having my time alone after school almost everyday. I guess God is telling me to make full use of that time. hahaha. Anyways,did a research(random) about what kind of boyfriend/girlfriend would they get. I had fun laughing over the comments made. It's funny how we humans can be so silly.

Hmmz,2010 so far,has not been a year for me. It pretty much sucks. Or issit just me(?). Looking on the brighter side,eye-candies are increasing(hehe). Stop it Deal.

k anyways,thats all for the short updates.

Annyeong :)

Romantic

2010-03-18T18:07:00.004+08:00

I'm a fool

your unforgettable love and my last tears

they're ripping my heart apart, ripping it apart

i'm sorry

i'm really sorry

I'm walking without any thoughts

wherever my heart is taking me

i seem to be looking for anyone who reminds me of you

just stand where you are

it feels like you just tapped my lonely shoulders and hid

why aren't you here?

why can't i see you?

are my eyes just blind? Oh No...

i believed that i could love again

you're branded in my heart and you can't be erased

what do i do?

if it's not you, it won't work

i found out now how miserable i am

in the photograph i still appear to be your love

i still feel your body heat, your face in my reach

still i have romantic in my heart

i want to go back

those endless days, when i had all of you

Why now(baby why?

you(tell me why)

have become impossible to find

i'm so afraid

inside the deeply embedded memories

i might(i know)

see you with the perfect man

i believed that i could meet someone like you again

you're branded in my heart

it hurts so much i could die

what do i do?

if it's not you, it won't work

i found out now how miserable i am

in the photograph, i still appear to be your love

i still feel your body heat, your face in my reach

still i have romantic in my heart

i want to go back

i must be exhausted

in the lonely love left behind

i'm wandering, looking for you in the empty space

please,look at me

look at me who's like you

an ordeal like this is too tiring for me

this is worse than waiting

i've become like you,even your habits

there's more of you in me than myself

i wanna be,wanna be your man

go back to those times

i want to be reborn as the man who loves you

i don't want to hurt you again

can i go

i wanna be

i won't let him be your man

if it's not you,it wont work

i found out now how miserable i am

in the photograph, i still appear to be your love

i still feel your body heat, your face in my reach

still i have romantic in my heart

i want to go back

if it's not you, it wont work

i just found out how miserable i am

your unforgettable love and my last tears

are ripping my heart apart

only scars that can't be healed remained

only the shabby parts of me remained

i'm so miserable

what do i do?

Really, what can i do now?

~*SHINee*~

Hey Mister

2010-03-17T20:40:00.002+08:00

In a glance you look good in my eyes

Stealing glances at you,i became a bit interested

tic toc tic toc the time just keeps flowing

looking looking my eyes keep looking your direction

smile smile just smiling to you

now now,look over here,hey!

hey there there mister

look over here please mister

yes,you mister

come to my side mister

hey there there mister

now look at me mister

i've wanted you for awhile mister

what's you name mister?

~*Kara*~

Laughters

2010-03-16T18:07:00.002+08:00

Annyeong!

Friday,Saturday,Sunday and Monday has been a happening day for me. Shasha's date is so sweet! hahaha :P :P

Friday and Saturday was basically spent with my great girlfriends. :D Great chill time and it was Shasha's Bday :DDD

Sunday was spent lazing,later on with Shasha.

Monday was especially filled with laughter,together with my momy,my cuzzie,Rudee,and his friend,Is. Damn it,they bullied me. And there's this guy which i have a crush on that works at Simpang Bedok. I first saw him at the end of 2008. haha.

I know i know you guyz must be saying" Deal,you have eye candies everywhere." But seriously,if you really wanna know my type,he's the one :) He's a chinese btw. hahahahaha :D

Anyways,enough about that. Im at my dads now,and i feel like going for a cycle later in the morning :D hahaha

I gtg now.

Tata peepz!

Annyeong!

Visits,Jobs,and Concert

2010-03-06T16:52:00.003+08:00

Annyeong!

So i didn't watch movie cause' my friend can't go,sob sob. So..I went to visit Mai! Yea it was a last minute plan. The next day,which was yesterday,Friday,went for YA meeting. Unfortunately only a few turn up. Met Q! hahaha. Missed the times.
After fetching my lil sis from school,me and Mai head off to town to hunt for jobs. Went to visit Shasha for a while too. Tried a few but none were hiring,so i guess we're gonna try some other jobs or just wait for the month to end. hahaha.

Niwaes...Gonna go concert with Sheng Fatt Hunny! Yahuu!! He bought for me the tickets already,thankz! Can't wait can't wait. I dont care if people think that i'm a Kpop fanatic or whutsoever cause' everyone has their likings. haha. SHINee concert that is. Omg,first time mann,woo! Pray hard!

I guess that's all,gonna get busy soon cause' i have some school thingy to do. tata!!

Annyeong!

Let's Get It Moving

2010-03-04T15:47:00.002+08:00

Least favoured,whutever. haha

Anyways,gonna be on a date later,haha. Kidding. Gonna go out with my Kfanatic buddy for a movie. Maybe. Hope it'll go well. hahaha.
That's all,this is just a short post,imin my cca.

Turn Away

2010-02-28T13:35:00.004+08:00

Should i turn around and just give up?

Cause' these obstacles are something that I'll always lose to.

No..

If others can do it..

I can too.

Lost

2010-02-26T19:17:00.002+08:00

You know when you wanna tell something to someone but ended up not telling whut you wanna tell exactly because of your fear,which causes the whole concept to change into a totally different thing? Yea,it happens to me. Almost every time that is. Which then i will end up regretting so badly. I guess things happens for a reason..

Ever had someone that had kept you interested for a long period of time since you were young? But when the time comes,you screw up every single thing by not telling entirely whut you need to say?

Yep,i was one of them.

Lotsa things are running through my mind which i'm not sure for whut. I feel lost. Gimme a few days alone and i'll be back.

Tata people.

Harassed by two Sickos

2010-02-16T13:21:00.003+08:00

Annyeong!

So today i woke up slightly earlier,11.30am :D Proud of it.

Log into msn but was harassed by 2 Sickos instead. One by the name of Advent and another Gerald. Stupid sex maniac. Didn't manage to block that Advent though,ssibal! I cant find his contacts.

This Advent guy was talking about something dirty and lastly he asked if im hot. My reply was,"No. Im very fat". Seconds after that he signed off. WTF right? haha!

THE second story is being snapshot here:

So girls,even guys,be aware of theses people. They may be into guys as well. I still can't stand this Gerald guy though. Girls are for sex???. Fu*ker,total fu*ker. We're not TOYS. If this affects anyone,im totally sorry. But this is my blog,my say,my thoughts.

Not gonna debate or whutsoever ,let's move on.

Tomorrow's school :(((((((((((((

Which means today i should slaccccccccccccccccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk,hahahahahaha

I guess that's all,tata!

Annyeong :)

My research On Roses

2010-02-15T16:45:00.004+08:00

Annyeong!

Remember hat i did a post about Roses? Yep2! I researched it on the net and found the different meanings on different number of roses. Extracted it from a website. If you wanna read more, :click Here!

Meaning of Color of Roses:

- Red	Sincere Love & Respect, Courage & Passion Send red roses to convey the message of your passionate love for that someone; saying "I love you"
- Pink	Grace and Gentility, the rose of sweet thoughts. Send deep pink roses to show your appreciation & gratitude; saying "Thank you" Send light pink roses to convey admiration and sympathy
- Yellow	In the Victorian times, yellow roses meant jealousy. But today, they signify friendship, joy, gladness and freedom, the promise of a new beginning. Send yellow roses to brighten up someone's day; to congratulate your friends and loved ones during Joyous occasions.
- White	Spiritual love & Purity, the rose of confession, the bridal rose; "You are heavenly", "I am worthy of you" Commonly used as traditional bridal bouquet during weddings to symbolize a happy love. You can nevertheless use them to convey the message of "You are heavenly, I miss you"
- Lavender	Love at first sight and enchantment Send lavender roses of course, to convey the message of your "love at first sight" with that special someone. You can nevertheless also send them if you would like to make a special impression.
- Orange	Passionate desire, pure enthusiasm and fascination An excellent choice for a new relationship that you wish to pursue further. It can nevertheless also be referring to a new business partnership.

Meaning of Number of Roses:

- 1 Rose	Love at the first sight; you are the one
- 2 Roses	Mutual love between both, deeply in love with one another
- 3 Roses	I love you
- 6 Roses	I wanna be yours
- 7 Roses	I'm infatuated with you
- 9 Roses	An Eternal love, together as long as we live
- 10 Roses	You are perfect
- 11 Roses	You are my treasured one; the one I love most in my life
- 12 Roses	Be my steady
- 13 Roses	Secret Admirer
- 15 Roses	I am truly sorry, please forgive me
- 20 Roses	Believe me, I am sincere towards you
- 21 Roses	I am devoted to you
- 24 Roses	Can't stop thinking about you, 24 hours everyday
- 33 Roses	Saying "I love you" with great affection
- 36 Roses	I will remember our romantic moments
- 40 Roses	My love for you is genuine
- 50 Roses	Regretless love, this is
- 99 Roses	I will love you for as long as I live
- 100 Roses	Harmoniously together in a century; remaining devoted as couple till ripe-old age
- 101 Roses	You are my one and only love
- 108 Roses	Please marry me!
- 365 Roses	Can't stop thinking about you, each and everyday
- 999 Roses	Everlasting and Eternal love

Though Valentine's Day is over,there's other days to date too right? haha. That's all!

Annyeong :)

Roses Everywhere

2010-02-14T23:58:00.002+08:00

Annyeong :)

So today i went to town with my dad's family. And i guess that's the only time i can say 'peace' in the mall,haha. I feel like i could run and shout and jump around like no one's business,hahaha. Niwaes,roses were sold everywhere,and it's funny thinking that,wouldn't it feel great if you could get a rose? I mean,there's this feeling that i can't explain. Well,a toy rose would be even better cause' it can last long and it can be washed if it's dirty...Frankly speaking,i still do not know why rose is presented as a sense of love. I mean,we have other flowers too like lilies all,but why rose? hahaha. Never mind,i think im being silly by giving myself these kinda questions,haha.

Speaking of roses,it reminds me of the poem in the primary school days. The hot poem that goes,Roses are red,Violets are blue,flowers are sweet,and so are You. hahahaha. I still remember hearing it everywhere i go. hahaha. And writing poems has always been my favourite,especially when im gonna send it in letters :)

K,im out of topics to write. I'll go off now!

Annyeong :)

Happy Chinese New Year and Valentine's!

2010-02-14T01:40:00.001+08:00

Annyeong!

I wanna wish Happy Chinese New Year to all those celebrating this special day and Happy Valentine's Day!

Isn't it lovely to see all those couples walking together and sharing the warmth and laughters together? haha. Those with no couples,c'mon,today's not the only day. There's other days too. You're not doomed,haha. Enjoy the day,life's too short to be unhappy :)

Niwaes,went out with my dad's fam today. Haha,had loads of fun,seriously. Bought Mochi and share it along the way of our walk in Botanic Garden. Loads of jokes cracked up as well as our past memories when me,my bro and my lil bro were still young. Mann,how time flies. I wish this moments lasts forever. haha

Ya know,in a wayy,i feel that we can only rely on our family members,though sometimes they may not be there for us. And i thank God that i have siblings,and i thank God that i have a lil sister of that kind. I brought her out to the playground that day,and i observed her throughout the day. She doesn't behave the same wayy as other kids her age does(besides being irritating). She seems special and bright. One things for sure,shes born intelligent,and i envy her for that. And in a wayy,i pity her for getting a sister like me. I can't even show my love to her(blame my ego),and all i could do is just buy her stuffs and treat her here and there. But im glad she can see it(for her kinda age,its pretty special). hahaha. Nvm,once she grows up,ill let her read my blog,haha.

Im still awake and im not feeling sleepy,gosh. Imchatting with Gayboy and Hamster now. haahaha. Kk,i guess thats all.

Annyeong! :D

Let's see

2010-02-12T16:59:00.002+08:00

Annyeong :)

I get this tingly feeling when i see my eye-candy :)

Those who knows,shut up :)

hahaha

School's been fine and okey. Still sucks at math though.

And oh...

I Miss Dancing! sob sob...

Its been ages since i dance with my two buddies :( haish.

Anyways,everyone's busy with their lives(including me),so i guess 2010 is a busy year.

Let's update. I found a new victim in class,Ismail. hehehe. That cute chubby cheeks,hahahha :D No no,don't worry,i've not punched nor kick anyone in class :) So i can be called feminine now,hahaha. Well,i missed being called a boy though...ehehh

Now im ay my dad's taking care of the Juggernaut. Oh,we had CIP just now. Went around block 165(which was near my house) to give the oranges,as part of our CIP and celebration. Alot of the houses received the oranges already. So end up,we ate the oranges,hehe,yum! :D I bought the wrong one though(shut up),damn embarrassing mann. The day end up nicely cause I saw my eyecandy,hahahahahahahahahahaha :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

K,that's all for now,shall update soon again.

Annyeong :)

short quick pressured felt post

2010-02-09T19:18:00.004+08:00

I feel so bad,i feel pressured.

I put on alot of weight. I feel unhealthy,i get pressured each time i had to go to my dads,i feel pressured about the time limit there are for exams,i feel like not studying anymore,i feel like giving up sometimes,i get nags unreasonably(most of the time),i wanna lose weight,i wanna feel good,i wanna lose my fats and gain back my muscles and tone. Gosh,im feeling the pressure. I don't really feel this way though sometimes i do say that i feel pressured. I wanna be smarter,how i wish im hardworking,whuts happening to me? So many changes in this 2010. Damn it,just how i hate life and myself sometimes.

And don't call me emo or either not in the right mind after reading this post. This is my blog,and part of my soul is here. I'm letting out my thoughts.

k,end.

Just one

2010-02-01T20:04:00.001+08:00

Annyeong :)

So yep,this is the only picture of my new hair :) hahahahaha

Short.

Good bye hair,Hello Nag

2010-01-31T12:46:00.003+08:00

Annyeong haseyo, so yes, i cut my hair. Good bye lovely long locks and hello short funk.

I asked for my own style and she gave me what i want, yay Yay!

This post today will basically base on me, and really about me and my thoughts.

How many of you doesn't get to do what you want in life? All, right? Same.

To my case today, i'm slowly by slowly searching for my personality. Yes, there is always a point of time in our life that we start to wonder who we really are. I'm always in between decisions. We have parents who always tell us what to do and prevent us from doing something that we want to do. This includes your dreams. Making your parents happy is something you gotta do in your life, but in certain point of time, you want to do something that makes YOU happy instead of them.

Yes, that's what i did. Im sick and tired of following rules and finally i've broken the rules. I made my dad angry and now he starts to nag at me. No, its not a good thing. But what i wanna say is that, how long am i gonna listen and not fight towards my dreams. Indeed,i have thought of my dreams, and im pretty sure my parents will be against it. I want to lead a happy life,doing something that i like,and keep my inspirations up. If not,i would rather do nothing and be happy rather than do something that i don't like.

Cutting my hair does not mean that i'm not interested in studies. It does not mean that i'm a loser who thinks hair is more important. It does not mean that im being a rude child or whatsoever. I cut my hair because i feel like it. Im a teenager mann.