Ladies you'd love to meet

Right after the release of my examination results...things really got bad.
Not only are there problems in deciding where I should go(well,dad made it much complicated) but also at work.

No,it's not the usual 'Im afraid that Ive done a mistake' or the usual 'Damn it's gonna be tedious'. It's more to a case where I'm being the scapegoat. Of course it takes two hands to clap,and everyone have a part to be blamed. I spoke the straight up truth,so I can confidently say that,I did not make up any stories. Damn..Why do this have to happen? I'm pretty sure it'll safely pass,but I still have a bad feeling about it. Oh Gosh...

Education do play a part in the days where I feel pressured. I want to make my own decisions but at the same time,my future decision has to be decided with my family. Of course,they've seen more than I do,and have been through more shytes..But I too want a part to play. :/ It's okeyy,as long as I pay for my education and school fees and study a little harder,much harder than before,i'm pretty sure that I could make it.

I'm having complicated feelings as well as complicated situation. They are both however separated,but joined in a wayy that I can't describe. Right when I moved on from the previous dude(due to circumstances) that i grew feelings for,another good soul came along as an another choice. Then he came again,right when I thought everything would be over.
I'm pretty sure that I'm not the only one that has been through this.
At times like this,we really have to think and be a little bit selfish,and do a little bit of give and take. Hard truth; we can never please everyone around us.

I'm caught and I'm kind of lost again. This is when I need to go real slow to anyone around me. Why is this happening mann? Maybe God is giving me a test that I'll have to take and it's either my choice to pass it or fail it. This is when I have to start thinking about the future. I mean,c'mon, once we reach the late teens we'll know that our turn for marriage is gonna come, and that we're not gonna stay young forever(though we could stay young at heart).

Some are okeyy with getting into a relationship and if it doesn't work out, just break up. I just, don't think that wayy. To me,after my last 6 exes, I've learnt more about myself and that I would just wanna get into 1 relationship and just hold on to the end. This also contributes to the reasons why I prefer to just date around because the dudes will never own you, and that if you are seeing another dude,they can't do anything about it(though I DO feel bad,really bad actually). I mean,life is short right? And women quality drops as we get older,another hard truth.

So now,I shall just see whut the paths leads me to. Most definitely, I cannot fall and get trapped, and tripping is risky.